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Pictures from Light The Night

Thanks to everyone who contributed time/money/love to making this beautiful day happen. Below are pictures of Team Brakes from the walk.

charity

I’m at the point where i’m starting to feel helpless about losing josh and really want to make leukemia/music charities my big side project. luckily, there are some great well established places to hook into. Check them out! Also, feel free to comment links if you know of any others!

UNITE THE UNITED | A CHARITY TO BENEFIT THE VICTIMS OF AN AMERICAN TRAGEDY

Music Saves Lives

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DKMS represents patients, donors, doctors, volunteers, families and friends. We connect the missing pieces, creating a forum where people can come together with one common goal. With a little courage, commitment and generosity, together we can find answers and help provide happy endings for patients fighting leukemia and other blood diseases.

today

okay, so items of the day:

1) we had a memorial day bbq. it ended up being incredibly difficult since none of us knew how to bbq b/c josh always was the over possessive grill guy. great at the time, but in retrospect i wish he had taught some of us what to do when he wasn’t around.

2) trader joe’s korean short ribs are fucking INCREDIBLE. i want to buy 2000000 packs of them and grill them every single day. only one meal a day though. more than that would just be over doing it.

3) dave brought me a bottle of champaigne. yay!

4) people hung out at the house until about 15 minutes ago during which we found the following movies:

utter insanity. josh would jump out of his grave right now if he could see this.

that lead to dominos which lead to the discussion of this, a movie i had seen long ago and can’t wait to own:
Der Lauf der Dinge aka The Way Things Go
i found it on youtube!!! woooooo!

5) we also talked about this crazy amazing screen saver called electric sheep. according to wikipedia, the name is in reference to the book “Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?” Interestingly enough, one of my favorite movies, blade runner, was loosely based on this book.

6) NIGHT.

this is why i can’t listen to music right now.

I can’t listen to music without something coming in my way and stealing all the good thoughts i’ve worked so hard to collect.

Like this:
Sufjan Stevens : Casimir Pulaski Day

Golden rod and the 4-H stone
The things I brought you
When I found out you had cancer of the bone

Your father cried on the telephone
And he drove his car to the Navy yard
Just to prove that he was sorry

In the morning through the window shade
When the light pressed up against your shoulder blade
I could see what you were reading

Oh the glory that the lord has made
And the complications you could do without
When I kissed you on the mouth

Tuesday night at the bible study
We lift our hands and pray over your body
But nothing ever happens

I remember at Michael’s house
In the living room when you kissed my neck
And I almost touched your blouse

In the morning at the top of the stairs
When your father found out what we did that night
And you told me you were scared

Oh the glory when you ran outside
With your shirt tucked in and your shoes untied
And you told me not to follow you

Sunday night when I cleaned the house
I find the card where you wrote it out
With the pictures of your mother

On the floor at the great divide
With my shirt tucked in and my shoes untied
I am crying in the bathroom

In the morning when you finally go
And the nurse runs in with her head hung low
And the cardinal hits the window

In the morning in the winter shade
On the first of March on the holiday
I thought I saw you breathing

Oh the glory that the lord has made
And the complications when I see his face
In the morning in the window

Oh the glory when he took our place
But he took my shoulders and he shook my face
And he takes and he takes and he takes

this is the one that got me today: